rEgReTz

2009-10-04T00:15:00.006+08:00

Dunno y...i back to blog coz not in a veri gd mood even though i keep thinking i'm okay...! juz suddenly miz those days tat we spent together...miss 5 months ago wat had happened...from e training camp till now n now everything has juz ended lik tat...haix...now i juz wan my attachment faster end den i wil b flying to beijing for my fyp...think go ther wil let mi relax my mind n when i cum back i wil b totally a different person...
now i will juz back to my emo kid mood le....
"Luv sux when luv hurtz! plz dun say sorri when u wan to hurt mi..
coz it's makes mi even more hurtz..!"
No matter how far u are,
I willing to give up everything just to find you..!
Upon all the stars, u are the brightest in my heart...
It's veri sure and there's no need anything to prove..
I regretz everything in my life!
The onli thing I wont regret is get to know you!
As i Know that i had alreadi fallen in luv in you..!

To someone tat i reali reali luv alot..
And watever u do,
will alwax be remember in my heart...*Forever*

2009-09-03T18:15:00.000+08:00

~blog will be currently closed till my attachment ends..~

Stress!!

2009-06-19T18:07:00.005+08:00

Projects are making mi so stress...
Stress! Stress! Stress!
i reali hope tat someone* can giv mi moral support now...!!
haiz..stress! Stress! stress!

2009-05-09T18:13:00.002+08:00

Sometimes...Reali dunno wat i wan..But when i noe n decide wat to do alreadi, alot of things happened...haiz...
sianx...everything aso sianx...
Nobody act. noe how i feel...
Reali dunno y tat time i will survive..i shouldnt had survive in tat accident..
Coz i reali dun wan to be in this world..or should say tat too mani things had happened and mak mi so complicated...
all i wan to say is so sadden...My life was so sux..
coz i feel tat so mani unfairness to mi...
aso thing tat i wan to say is this
"Luv sux when luv hurtz! when u wan to hurt mi den plz dun say sorri..
coz it's makes mi even more hurtz..!"

Ha...I'm Back!!

2009-02-28T18:35:00.002+08:00

Hmm...say wat lehz...Lots of things had happened this past few days...Got happy, sad, memories, etc...
1st i wan to say is exam is over...!Not veri confident tat wil score veri well..but hopefully i will improve alot...
2nd is... Going to yr3 soon le...even though mi alwax not wif clz ppl but dunno why i feel abit something missing..coz everyone will be separated by different specialisation...
lastly is...Finally i got the answer from her alreadi...Something i reali reali wan to tell her...
girl...Even though, i alreadi noe tat u cant accept mi due to some reason..but to mi, u r alreadi a veri important person in my heart tat nobody can be replaced...!
I reali miss you lots..!

2009-01-19T12:14:00.000+08:00

Sianz,Sianx,Sianx...
Dieing soon!!!

2008-12-19T23:57:00.007+08:00

Something had happened between mi n her during e past few weeks...Dun wish to say wat's the whole story about..Dunno y i juz feel tat there's something she wan to hide from mi...Even though e thing was over and had alreadi settle but i juz hav a feeling tat we cannot lik wat we as be4 le...Coz after tis incident, i reali was being hurt and is not the 1st time le..This incident was happened second time alreadi, aso dunno y everytime related to her i wil alwax kanna fuck upside down by her frenx without any reason...1st incident was e worst, i did nothing wrong and dun even noe a thing den guess wat happened...End up her frenx act. noe my frenx den i was being add in their conversion den e thing start..kanna scolded for nothing den u noe wat... in e end i told her act. is wat den she stil can juz say sorry to mi lik tat...den say can i be ur frenx? u r act. a nice person...On tat time my mind was lik...Of coz lah, kanna scolded by u 4 nothing and i stil tok nicely...Eh... act. is i c u as her gd frenx den i juz dun bother...or else u think wat, as for my character i sure fucked u upside down 1st be4 i offline lor...Den now 4 mi, aiyah things alreadi happened 4 so long liao..Wat had over, its alreadi over le..dun bother 2 say again but juz tat i wont forget...
So sometimes ppl c mi lik veri gd lik tat can bully mi hor...Act. u all r wrong..hahahx...Can ask one of my classmates how i scolded him tat time...which he reali go to a certain extend tat i reali scolded him infront of alot of my other classmate...Think nobody c mi tat fierce be4...but act. tat time fierce is juz normal of mi onli.If i reali veri fierce till now no1 c it be4 coz mi myself aso dunno wat i will do...Hmmm....Now can say i alreadi forgive him but i wont forget...
Ohyah, havnt say finish e incident of her yet...Hmm...as for now lehx..dunno y i juz feel tat no matter how much effort i hav done but stil cant amend back e crack between us..coz i hav tried but dunno y i juz feel tat u seems lik dun wan...Till tat day u sms mi and ask mi y i so quiet/i stil hav not got over it abt e incident...Somemore she stil say sorry to me...
Stupid pig...I dun wan u to say sorri to mi..act. to mi, u no need to say sorry to mi de...coz its not ur fault k...e more u say sorri, e more i feel veri xin tong...
Besides tat incident act. stil got another reason y i becoz not myself...is act. got some1 told mi be4 tat i was lik a glue tat everytime stick to u...Act. i'm not...i go find u or tok to u is coz sometimes i juz wan to help u in studies...if lik tat makes ppl think tat i lik a glue den forget it...Haiz...reali dunno wat to say sia...To me, sometimes u lik an "Angel" but sometimes u lik a "Devil"...Reali dunno wat is u sia...Like monday ur sms reali mak mi feels tat u reali hav a kind of feeling tat how i feel le...Reali wat ppl says...Normally ppl will sense another ppl mind thinking/feelings act. means tat e person reali likes tat particular person alot...Tis is actually wat had happened to mi veri long le...Dunno y sometimes i reali can sense wat's ur thinking...Do u reali feel tat way aso?
Still wonder tat will u reali giv mi e chance...?
Ah...Dun think liao...e more i think of, e more i miz u..!
Ohyah..Btw to all readers, my new blogskin nice ma? Is a new style of mi on designing...hahax...i love e effect alot sia...and tis design is specially designed for someone in my heart...Hope she lik it..! Heex...

Back To blog le...

2008-11-23T20:29:00.003+08:00

Yeah i'm back to blog le..Coz these few days veri buz abt sch work, club things...
Yesterday is SC event and is our 1st EXCO events...find abit dulan abt it aso due to somebody..think tat person should noe themselves coz yesterday was kanna shoot by mi aso...Anywae i shoot them i aso feel damn song..! Haha..!
Think after SC got alot ppl wil tend to quit le bah due to tat particular person aso..Anywae after SC i aso wont feel lik doing things le..coz in e veri 1st place i aso wan to quit tats y i dun even bother abt club thing sometimes...
Yesterday weather was damn hot den i kanna sun burnt..den was veri pain sia..aso mak my eye becum so small..my eyes alreadi veri small liao now more worst...Zzz..SC event aso need to postpone coz of suddenly raining plus lightning den bo bian lor muz postpone...haiz..so mafan...Sianxz...
Hmm..Think of her again...Sometimes i reali wonder wat she thinking sia..wat is inside her mind actually..Do i reali stand a chance??? Coz i reali dun wan to hav a false hope again..lik wat i alwax say..Qi wang ye gao, shi wang yue da..! Tats y till now i still waiting for her...Even though i alwax say as long as she happy can liao..but sometimes i aso will feel sad de...alwax emo one side but i reali tried my veri best not to emo infront of her, but still cant do it sometimes...
I reali do care for her and try my veri best to mak her happy..and No matter how long i reali willing to wait de....hmm...dun say abt my love life le..tok abt other things...
My work bah..Hmm..i juz lose my job even though is i resign de..coz the manager ther reali damn fuck up n den i was being force to resign...Now i was jobless..Zzz... despo for job now...Any1 got job lobang must tell mi k...

2008-09-15T18:34:00.002+08:00

2day start work at GV GOLD CLASS...1st day ther for training...1st day was 'WOW' fantasic...Coz go ther eat their menu stuff for lunch time..Like the main course, dessert, dim sum, drinks and etc...Also thier dessert was Hot chocolate brownie plus ice cream sia...Was damn nice lor...ppl was pay money to eat but mi today was being paid to go ther eat plus chit chat...wahahax..Somemore mi was e 1st batch tat got this type of advantage sia..den i found tat e 2 managers was quite gd n friendly..e Staff ther aso...After release mi hm, e manager say tat he will put mi more on bar..Yes! This was wat i want sia...Hopefully i will b ther for long n happy to work ther..Of coz most important thing was pray hard tat wont b as busy as club...hahax..
Haix...result cuming out later 12am...sianx..Damn scared sia...
Still thinking whether wan to continue EXCO anot..Maybe going to stepdown after my events which was sports champ...Sianx ar...

2008-09-05T21:50:00.002+08:00

Yeah! Finally find job le..haha..today juz went for 2 job interview..One is F1 race and another 1 is GV gold class bartender...
Hahax.. One shot work 2 jobs..Pro rite..hahax..bo bian despo for job/money is lik tat de..wahahax..
Both hired mi...heex..
Morning is F1 race dunno do wat ushering de...den my frenx's frenz is do Traffic master...Is guide e traffic de...Pay not bad somemore..Hope can c e race...hahax..
Next is e GV de...Even though e pay is not veri gd, quite low but nvm can go ther gain experience..At least got job for mi to survive if not mi sure damn broke cannot go learn driving liao..But this job think will giv mi gain alot of experience bah...
Even though i got bartending experience but is long time ago liao stil need sometime to recap...Hopefully will recap fast and aso wont b alot ppl ther coz i can relax..but compare to last time bar think this one will be much more relax..
Somemore is more high class...
So if i work long my pay wil increase den aso next time if i quit liao den go out work at least i can go hotel or other place to apply for bartender position...I'm sure the pay ther will be much more....
Pay hard tat the people and the manager ther will be much more better than e club...Coz i dun wan my history to repeat which i think is a veri hurtful thing plus aso i was damn suay...

back to blog le....

2008-09-03T21:41:00.000+08:00

Today went to celeste hse Play but dunno play wat...hahax...YEah..! i design a new blog skin can say nothing to do or can aso say i try to design blog skin for trainning...Coz kanna EXCO in pub..wah damn sianx sia...Go in pub super lot of things to do sia...people bday aso not my business...Stil need to do bday card for them den my bday how...?? Do for myself ar...Zzz...

Hmm...Lets' say abt my new blog skin...Nice anot??Cool rite..? Muz giv mi comments for my new blog skin tat i design k...Den i can improve in it...

2008-08-09T21:26:00.000+08:00

Hmm...Back to post le..!!hahahx..
Was so buz these few days, guess i buz of wat???
Of coz is buz study lor...Buz study e EC test which i dun even noe a shit about it..coz all along nv listen..hahax..But in e end e common test was not as difficult as i thought..Even mi tis noob aso noe how to do sia..n was super easy...Lik ABC..! hahax...
hmm..Next was CS2 common test on fri...Wah tat one ar..Super difficult sia..
When i 1st c e paper, my reactions was lik...WTF is this....Den i say something veri loud..i said oh i think i "GG" liao...Aiyah.. dun say liao..e more i say e more gg i feel

Haiz...Veri long nv sms her liao....these few days i was thinking...Wat i wan now???
Izzit a muz to be wif her or juz wan to c her happy??
Actually i reali dunno...
To her" she is not looking for a relationship".. Actually izzit veri important tat r u looking for a relationship..Coz all i wan to noe is how u feel abt mi...At least i will noe wat to do..but now is...i dun even noe wat u wan and aso dun even noe wat i can do for u...

~~Maybe i shouldnt had started in the 1st place, coz in the end both of us will still get hurtz... ...~~
Think i wont blog liao...i wil start to blog after my exams...

2008-07-30T19:37:00.000+08:00

Number of rose represents..

1 Rose-- Exceptional love
2 Roses -- Love deeply
3 Roses -- I love you
6 Roses -- Wan to be yours
9 Roses -- Love eternally
11 Roses-- I love u most in my life
12 Roses ---Mutual affinity
13 Roses ---Secret admirer
24 Roses ----Remember you fondly all the time
33 Roses ----Express profound love
36 Roses ----Romantic attachment
44 Roses ----Unchangeable pledge
50 Roses ----regretless love
56 Roses ----You are my love
99 Roses----making love eternal
101 Roses----No other love but you.
108 Roses---Please marry me!
111 Roses---- Eternal Love
144 Roses ----Loving you day and night eternally
365 Roses ---Thinking of you everyday, love you everyday
999 Roses ---Everlasting and eternal love
1001 Roses --Faithful love, 'till forever

2008-07-30T19:30:00.000+08:00

Something tat i wanna say abt relationship...!

Love is unpredictable
Love is uncontainable
Love is reliable
Love is infallible
Love is right
Love is wrong
Love is weak
Love is strong
Love is good
Love is pure
Love is real
Love is sure
Love is jealous
Love is pain
Love is lost
Love is gained
Love is naked
Love is raw
Love is everything
Love is all
Love is here
Love is there
Love is beautiful
Love is fair
Love is great
Love is shit
Love is demanding
Love is it...

Memories

2008-07-28T19:49:00.000+08:00

Yeah..! Last friday was quite fun in e phatenitex event..I think this event was the most successful event among all the others events...Having a clubbing feel in this phatenitex was reali fun man! Coz i veri long nv go club liao..But sadly no alcohol is allowed..Coz if got e clubbing effect den plus e alcohol think will b damn high sia...But overall is "WOW! IT'S GOOD..!" hahax..

Anywae, wat has over it's alreadi over... All events has finally clear/ended..Now is the time to start focusing on my study alreadi..Coz exam is cuming soon and i reali reali wan to do better than be4 or i should say dun ever let my gpa drop..Coz tis is e reason y i came to poly in e 1st place..Getting a gd results to go study U and to mak my dream cum true to go U and study laws...

Oh yah..! think all has cum to e end and e voting day is cuming which falls on e day i having my common test...Yawnz...

No matter i gonna b exco anot, think all these events will alwax kept in my heart..! I muz reali thanks e FMO publication seniors "Charlene, Daniel, Kenneth, Jewerly, Eeling" Especially Charlene... Coz she reali teaches mi alot of things even though sometimes she veri fierce..

Charlene likes to say e things to ur design..
UR DESIGN MUZ HAVE...
1. IMPACT
2. CONTRAST
3. COLOR COORDINATION

Things tat Eeling lik to say n do..
1. YAWNS...(ACTION)
2. MY BED IS CALLING ME(SAY) means she tired liao wan 2 go slp...

e rest i forgot liao...hahax...Hmm....aso if not becoz of them think my photoshop wont b tat gd n aso nobody will recognise my design..But now my design was being recognise by others and aso got ppl pay mi to design things...hahax...

I reali learn alot of things ever since e camp eagle starts... Once again i reali thanks them from e veri bottom of my heart..!

Also for e past few months tat i mix around wif e OGLS from different course, no matter is in e planning stage or fooling around days i reali had fun... Coz i get to noe more ppl n e bonding between them think should b strong bah..But i think mi was much more closer to MIT ppl bah..Example lik ShuHui(hamster), celeste, meiyi(my owner), chin, dap... I didnt expect i will noe such a frenx lik them.. Coz they reali a veri nice person...aso a veri lame + crap person, etc......

i miss all e events,
i miss all e OGLS,
i will keep all these memories in my heart
and all will be remember by me, Nettez!!

2008-07-24T17:48:00.000+08:00

A Short Phrase tat i specially wrote for you!!...

No matter how far u are,
I willing to give up everything just to find you..!
Upon all the stars, u are the brightest in my heart...
It's veri sure and there's no need anything to prove..
I regretz everything in my life!
The onli thing I wont regret is get to know you!
As i Know that i had alreadi fallen in luv in you..!

To someone tat i reali reali luv alot..
And watever u do,
will alwax be remember in my heart...*Forever*

2008-07-23T20:31:00.000+08:00

Yeah..! 2day quite happy coz i finally bought my bar blade..HAHA..! Waited for so long... Aso i found a place tat sell alcohol damn cheap sia...If i got money i wil go buy coz i can mak my own cocktails n giv to some ppl to try..!

Yeah..! Finally can do back my bar things after tat incidents... Tat incidents reali mak mi think back of wat i did which reali veri foolish and was almost get jailed..! But aso after this i reali grown up alot n started to think of my parents..Not lik last time i used to quarrel wif my mum which now i think is veri bad..Coz living in a single parent family, i should giv a tot of my mum but in e end i nv...Until something reali had happened to mi den i will started to regretz...
So now i reali change alot and my attitude towards my mum aso change from bad to more better...Even my ITE frenx/ buddies aso say i reali change alot in thinking..Is becum more mature..I hope i wont hurt my mum anymore coz everytime she was crying coz of my problem...

hmm... aso next sat is my bday and i'm going 21 yrs old le so reali muz think..Coz watever i do now rite i will think before i do...
Actually aso muz thanks my "BAR BUDDIES" coz if not becoz of u all i wont grow up and aso wont noe how e nitex life world is...Juz becoz of u all i got in police case... So anywae, to mi is "NO PAIN NO GAIN"... hahhax..! anywae, it was alreadi my past liao..so i dun wish to tok abt it...If 'You' wan to noe i can tell u wat had happened last time...
Hmm..dun say liao mi wan to slp le..I wil stop here...

2008-07-22T22:04:00.000+08:00

Haiz...damn tired..juz got back home from sch...Sianz sia..my harddisk kanna virus again den is lik wtf sia...i SUPER sianx liao ar... keep formatting.....Zzz...den juz found out tat MIT is not in SIT Club liao..All is move to SEG le coz becum SEG club le..Is news is freaking sianx lor..lik tat i lik doing for nothing for e past few months sia...Coz MIT ppl are alreadi bonded wif other course ppl together for dunno how mani months liao...Haix.. But e gd things is tat i no need to be so buz le..Can focus more on my other things... plus my sch work + ... tired liao need to go slp le..!

2008-07-21T19:48:00.002+08:00

不是为了什么回报所以关怀
不是为了什么明天所以期待
因为我是一个人
只能够对感觉坦白
只是为了你一句话我全身摇摆
只是为了一个笑容爱就存在
那些想太多的人
有生之年都不会明白
因为爱所以爱
温柔经不起安排
愉快那么快不要等到互相伤害
因为爱所以爱
感情不必拿来感慨
谁也不用给我一个美好时代
我要你现在

The World Reality

2008-07-21T19:48:00.000+08:00

Early in the morning i go sch for the internet programming mini project things..Get full marks...hahhax but need to change some things..After toking to Eden i suddenly have a though of why the world is lik tat...
At 1st is my clz ppl..Now is E3 ppl..How cum will have such a ppl in this world..Which i feel tat is quite fucked up..! Dunno why i have a clz tat some ppl can actually when they are in a need or need ur help den they will start to tok to u or get close wif u...Actually before i cum to poly i alreadi eXpect this type of things will happened but juz tat dunno y i feel some of my clz ppl reali veri terrible which i feel veri 'er xing'...They are getting more n more asshole...Behind of mi say mi things..okay tis..i nv say anything but now u all are e 1st person tat mak mi having a tot of ENOUGH IS ALREADY ENOUGH! I DUN FEEL LIK HELPING U ALL ALREADY! have u all think of mi alwax being helping u all den now wat i get..backstab.. makes mi think tat i'm juz jiu sheng quan for u all...Example"nv do finish ur things u all will think tat aiya nvm lah still got nettez or other ppl can help mi..! Hello!! Who u think u are? U THINK MI OR OTHER PPL IS VERI FREE TO HELP U ALL TO CLEAR UR MESS OR UR SHIT AR..! PLEASE THINK OF OTHERS CAN...ONLI NOE HOW TO THINK ABT URSELF...
juz dunno y got tis ppl in tis world..
Haix...I think say wat aso no used coz tis is e fact tat i need to face it..! coz even i nv met this thing i will aso meet this kind of thing in e outside world..Besides tat i alreadi grown up, so i decided to hack care everything n juz focus my own things...!To mi i juz pray n hope tat u all wont be e same clz as mi in yr 3..
But watever it is... i juz dun care..! Juz dun ever mak ur problem to my problem..! As long as i can c her in sch or in lecture den i veri happy liao..Coz whenever i c her, she brighten up my days..! Also i wanted to tkx shu hui, meiyi,chin n daphne..coz if not becoz of them, think till now i still havnt tell her how i feel...
Wish tat she wont tired herself anymore....

Back to post le..!

2008-07-20T14:46:00.000+08:00

Friday having CS presentation...At 1st i tot i will do veri badly but in e end is not bad...After tat, i feel so happy...IS not becoz of e presentation thing but is becoz of her..I feel tat after tat day tat i say all my feelings to her, we are getting even more closer than before..and it's a good start...coz friday the 18th of july, we are more lik a couple...think she noe how i feels.. even though she dun lik to tak pic but i said this to her" Anywae, I will wait for the day that she is willing to tak pic wif mi.." At least i told her how i feel and she noe tat no matter wat i will still be waiting for her ans.. Girl, I noe tat u are not looking for a relationship and i noe how u feel but to mi... As long as u feel happy, it's alreadi more than enough...Even though i realli wish tat i can be wif u... So i wont force u and i will wait for the day u reali looking for a relationship or accept mi..!

Here is some pictures of the presentation day..!

mE aCting gangster..!

mY CS presentation gRp..!

mY clz..!

2008-07-14T22:56:00.000+08:00

2day i met u..! i reali dunno how to face u but u seems lik nothing happen which i feel tat watever i do is lik so useless....But as time goes by, i start to go back lik last time..Which i quite happy wif it, coz mi n her back to last time le..but even though is back to last time, dunno y my heart stil veri pain...but as long as she happy can liao...After my nitex clz, she told mi tat she nearly cried..when i heard tis i feel so xin tong and sad... coz e person tat i loved alot was being bully by someone but i cant do anything...e onli thing i can do is sms her n show my concern to her...Hopefully, she feel better now...

2008-07-13T22:49:00.000+08:00

A Saddest day tat i never ever met be4..!

Reali shouldnt ask tat particular question..coz reali is not e rite time yet...
As for now think time will heal my broken heart bah..! HOPEFULLY..!
Reali sorri for wat i said to you..! Ever since yesterday, i dunno y i keep thinking of u and dunno y will suddenly drop my tears..Think i reali having a veri deep luv in you le..! Haiz..I reali treasure u n wan u to be happy....So no matter wat, i will still respect ur decision... and no matter how long, i will still willing to wait...Or
maybe as time goes by, u will start to accept..! Or i should say this...
" Lets' the nature to take it's course bah..!"

2008-07-12T15:23:00.000+08:00

A Lyrics tat was specially for YOU...!!

我一直都想对你说
你给我想不到的快乐像绿洲给了沙漠
说你会永远陪着我

做我的根我翅膀让我飞也有回去的窝

我愿意我也可以付出一切也不会可惜
就在一起看时间流逝要记得我们相爱的方式
就是爱你爱着你有悲有喜有你平淡也有了意义
就是爱你爱着你甜蜜又安心那种感觉就是你
我一直都想对你说
你给我想不到的快乐像绿洲给了沙漠
说你会永远陪着我
做我的根我翅膀让我飞也有回去的窝
我愿意真的愿意付出所有也要保护你
oh 在一起时间继续流逝请记得我有多么的爱你
oh 就是爱你爱着你不弃不离开不在意一路有多少风雨
就是爱你爱着你放在你手心灿烂的幸福全给你
oh 就是爱你爱着你我都愿意
就是爱你爱着你要我们在一起

Really miss u alot...!

2008-07-11T08:44:00.000+08:00

SianZation....Feel so sleepy..wanNa sLp...yawnx!eaRly in e morning need 2 wak up...tis Sem think sure flunk liao...haIz...cant maintain my gpa le due to something happened...

Exam TimeTable

2008-07-09T20:12:00.000+08:00

Oh No....! Now den i found out tat my exam week is my tp week...Somemore one of my papers is my tp...Zzzz...Sianz half liao....

>>>My Timetable>>>>

so near but yet so far!

2008-07-09T12:45:00.000+08:00

troubleshoot is THE only person that makes me like a fool.
Willing to scarifice everything just to make her happy
HAIZ!!!